(Kinda. I am still in the name change process.)
The wedding coordinator messed up on my song (A Thousand Years by the Piano Guys) and missed my cue, only the kids danced, and everyone bounced about the time I turned to Aaron and said "I am over this wedding. I just want to be with you". And every second was perfect.
Somehow along the way, from getting my neck burnt during my hairdo process (two of my wonderful friends showed up early just to do my hair and makeup, thank you Sarah and Bonnie)
to walking down the staircase, my mind went blank.
I mean blank...
Like, Dad has to carry me because I can't remember how to walk.
After so much planning and waiting I was shocked by something.
I didn't care.
I didn't care if people danced. If the music was right, if I stumbled on my way. I didn't care if I mumbled through my vows and only Aaron could hear me, if I fumbled getting the rings on or looked silly in pictures. The one thing that I could think the entire morning was, this is it. I am finally getting married to the man I know I was meant to marry.
And Joel is dancing his butt off.
Near the end, after we had all decided that was enough wedding for the day, my brother showed up with what made the entire marriage worth it.
My brother came up the staircase, and I saw a tiny blonde behind him.
"No way" I thought (and said out loud). And then Hayden looked at me and I felt the world melt around me. It has been over 4 years since I had the chance to hold him. I went straight to him with my arms out, wondering how he would react. And after looking me over, Hayden reached right back and let me pull him into one of the most meaningful hugs I have ever had. I whispered to him how I missed him and love him. He patted my back and said
(Yeah... he's a boy.)
Joel joined us on our first dance (Very upset that I was getting so much attention, he had to remind me that he was my one and only.)
Yes. The past month has been a whirlwind of emotions, stress and bliss. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
Except potty training... I'd like to skip potty training....